Wednesday, September 3, 2014

Mulakan semula

bismillahhirrahmanniraahim

Asalamualaikum,

hai yooall
how was it goin?
feelin better now,
the wedding was over.
not mine for sure.

couple days ago, i watched a movie called "starting all over again"
pinoy movie ( Philippine)
it was nice.
it was great!
but you know, as a Muslim,
for sure i dont really like the storyline,
but i like the ending.

it was a story about a girl.who worked hard to get a guy. then finally, the guy loves her back. but then as they are in love, the girl started to be afraid of their future. she is a very ambitious girl  but the guy just vice versa. so, she decided to leave the guy and further her study in Barcelona. her mom supported her study. and she made it until Master.

few years later, he came back to Philippine. and she had to renovate her old boyfriend family's house. then, she tried to get the guy back. she became so obsessed. she tried everything to get the guy.
she think that meeting the guy again was a destiny. to bring them closer again. but turned out to be it was just a closure.

then, she stop loving the guy. and she is staring all over again. she had been stucked for too long with the guy. the moment she opens her heart for other guys ,the world become so wide. so wide and every guy seem to be possible to get into her heart.

its remind me of law of attraction somehow. the law states that everything that we are attract to, we will get it! the girl was so stuck with her old boyfriend until she was captivated with her own- making prison.

this sort of thing, could happen to us too.
we are sometimes become blind with something,
that prevent us from seeing the whole wider world that posses much more precious things.
we become deluded
 and why im telling you this thing?

im not gonna lie to you that im just regular-typical girl,
loving someone ,it is just like a part time job ( haha)
i do love someone( or shall i say a few someone? haha)

and i keep thinking of marrying this particular guy,
my life wanting only him to be my partner,
no room for other guys.
and im kindda figured out that im gonna save my heart for the next 5 or 4 years just for this guy.

and here's come the next question,
IT IS WORTH IT?

who knows?
nobody knows.
and there is no guarantee at all that he's gonna be mine.

love but scare,
afraid but dare,
worry but brave,
happy but sad.

watching this movie make me realize that maybe im just like the girl.
im limiting myself,
i really want to move on, or starting all over again, or at least dont put anyone in my heart ,
but what if i wait and it worth it?

loss are everywhere,
together is for sure( insyallah)  but with who is the question,
but now only time would tell
waiting would be my bestfriend now








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